Updated: May 3, 2019
I started today with plans for a date tonight. And I ended it with a dude calling me huge. This is my dating life.
It's nbd (no big deal. people know that, right?) I deal with this shit all the time. Ghosting is only the beginning of my #girlgonedating stories. And they recently ended with being called huge.
This guy and I recently started talking on facebook/tinder/text and ultimately decided to meet tonight. We had typical get to know you conversation, family and work and weather type stuff. Then a few hours before our date tonight, he made a somewhat inappropriate sexual comment. And it dawned on me that we had a misunderstanding. So I cancelled the date. I guess I was mistaken about what kind of meeting this was, and tbh (to be honest) his presumptuousness slightly disappointed me. It didn't surprise me. But still, it was a bit of a let down.
Anyway, I expected to be ignored, forgotten, two adults moving the fuck on and making other plans for the night (laundry, errands, dinner. I get so few nights without the kid that I try to fit EVERYTHING POSSIBLE into 1 or 2 nights during the week. #singleparenting.)
But then he called me huge.
And I was stunned.
THIS is what is out there, people. Men, and women, that have zero respect for other people. We are a society of sociopaths, of Trumps. It gets exhausting. It gets disheartening. It gets depressing af. But most of all sometimes, it makes you pissed the fuck off. A grown man (with a 16 year old daughter, no less) has to stoop to such a second grade level because he was rejected? He had to immediately address my looks as a means for revenge, to put me down because I hurt his fragile little ego? In the year of our lord 2019, men are still doing this? All i can say is wtf (what the fuck.)
The icing on the cake is to know that even briefly, even now, at age 38, after a lifetime of ups and downs, hearing a man make a fat joke at my expense had even a slight affect on me. Well, that's what really angers me. Fuck that. I deserve so much more then that, you know? I know. That's all that matters. #straigtenyourcrown
So that's my dating life. It's a constant disappointment out there.
But you know what? There is so much to be grateful for, regardless of it all. This is not meant to be a depressing tale, just one of life and dating in 2019. There is much to appreciate, as evidenced by the lovely bloom of spring in the #518. Take these pics as proof of the beauty that still surrounds us and deserves our focus.
And that hope springs eternal.